XANDER: BOOK 1, THE BEGINNING
(ROCKSTAR BOOK 9)
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We met at the age of eight. That day on the playground was a turning point in my life. She stole my heart with just a glance as she sang off key.
But nothing’s perfect.
I figured out pretty quickly she was too good for me, so I let her go.
I thought I was doing the right thing--until I realized I wasn’t.
She was my everything and without her I was nothing.
When we reunited, my heart became whole. My life had meaning. We loved fiercely and completely. Life was perfect.
The more success I gain with Falling Down, the further away I’m pulled from Tera. But she gains success of her own, and the distance grows immeasurably..
She wants me to live my dreams and I want the same for her. We both know our love is strong enough to survive time and distance.
Then the unthinkable happens and nothing will ever be the same again.
"This isn't easy for me to do. You've been my rock, but I don't want you to be my crutch. I know you're a phone call or a flight away. I promise you, if something happens, if I just need to talk to you to get me through a hard time, I will call you immediately, no matter the time. I'll interrupt you during a show. I promise."
This is what he's asked of me. It's the least I can do for the man who owns my heart and soul, the man who's looked out for me for the last eight weeks without so much as a complaint.
He lets out a sigh of frustration. "I don't want to do this."
"I know. But you have to."
He looks into my eyes and I feel him searching for something—the truth. I let him see it. I let him see that I need him to do this not only for himself and his career, but for me as well. He can't miss out on something so amazing because he wants to sit here and make sure I'm okay. I can't allow him to do that. At some point he'd realize what he gave up and he'd resent me, especially if my career takes off. I couldn't live with that.
"For you, my wife, I'll do anything," he says softly.
XANDER: BOOK 2, THE PRESENT
(ROCKSTAR BOOK 10)
COMING JUNE 25TH
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It's ten years later, and we're still living separate lives. While I know she isn't comfortable with my lifestyle after everything she’s been through, I can't be without her anymore.
I need her.
She's my wife.
She's my heartbeat.
She's my next breath.
She's my everything.
I want to know every detail of her life. I want to be part of it all. I want to work as hard to get there as she did to get here.
She's always been my girl—even at the age of eight. As I face her now, there's no doubt she'll be mine until I draw my last breath as I will be hers.
It's time for our forever to begin.
©2017 Anne Mercier
Lucy steps up. "Xan, Xan, Xan. You got some 'splaining to do."
I knew this was coming and I have no idea what I'm going to say. How do I explain to them what's all happened and why I kept Tera to myself?
Shit. Meggie, Nicole, and Sera step up, Summer standing behind them. All of them holding the stance of a woman with a severe attitude.
I guess I've gotta wing it.
"Life is like a box of chocolates," I begin.
"How very Forrest Gump of you," Meggie teases, and not in a pleasant way.
I sigh. "Would you just listen and save your comments for after?"
Lucy lifts a brow. Sera crosses her arms. Nicole rests her hand on her cocked hip. Meggie pops her gum.
I am so fucked.
"Life is like a box of chocolates. You open the box and there are so many to choose from. You pick through them one by one trying to find the one that you absolutely love, the one you can't live without. But sometimes, you find that favorite, that love, on the first try. That's what happened with Tera and me. Hint: The square ones are the caramels."
Lucy smirks. "So you're saying that Tera is your caramel in a box of otherwise shitty chocolates."
I nod, head bobbing. "That's exactly it."
Sera laughs. "Well who are we to tell him the caramels aren't the best? I love those suckers."
"But," Meggie interjects, "why keep this love of caramels a secret? Why not share that love with the rest of us?"
Xan looks down. "Sometimes, when you love something so much and you are away from it for so long, you don't know whether or not that caramel still loves you back. And sometimes you just don't want to share that caramel. You just want to hold on as tight as you can just in case it's the last time."
Nicole lets out a scoff. "We could have been here for you. Helped you through the caramel melting times. We'd have helped you reshape it and put it in the 'fridge to hold its true form."
I nod again. "I know, but I didn't want your pity. I didn't want your sympathy. This was just something I needed to do on my own. Sera deals with her Cage issues on her own, never sharing them."
"That's true, I do. But you knew Cage and I were married," Sera retorts.
"And I told you about my past," Lucy offers. "The worst parts of it."
"You have, but not in detail like you shared with Jesse and I'd never want you to unless it's what you were ready for and you're still not ready to share that, just as I wasn't ready to share about Tera," I explain.
"You ready now?" Summer asks.
I nod. "It's a long story. I won't share Tera's details. That's for her to do. But here's what happened…"